Being a Goal oriented person.... with ADHD
11/12/2024
5:08pm
hard to even focus on this website
Ducky, you have ADHD? (asked absolutely no one)
Yes, yes i do. And it fucking sucks.
Im sure the horse killing amount of caffeine im drinking isnt helping either, but I strongly believe that having ADHD, and having a goal oriented mind do NOT go well together. They often clash for superiority, with ADHD being the victor almost everytime. I rarley have moments where I am COMPLETLEY focused with my work. My brain loves to wonder and think about other things.... as I am doing something else, often resulting in me de-railing and getting distracted with something unrealated to what I am working towards.
Im already very busy with other things going on in my personal life like work and family, as I have a small child of my own to take care of with my partner, but when I do have time to study for school and such, my brain leaves the skull it lives in and hops around the house. I have found ways to keep myself engaged and focused over the years though. Fidget toys help believe it or not. They keep my hands moving and engaged, in turn keeping my brain focused on the task at hand. Leaving my phone in another room to charge away from my computer also helps. TikTok is one hell of a drug kids. I would argue its more addictive than herion. Most of the time listening to music while studying actually distracts me, but if its calm and quiet music in the background, it actually helps quite a bit.
as of right now, I am still in University, and it can be intense at times. Due dates need to be met, so I have been allocating time every night to study for a couple of hours, which has helped me IMMENSLY... when I actually do it. I also like to study for IT Certifications so that I have a better chance at landing a job after college, so I do that on the side. simultaneously, I work on projects for the fun of it, and too learn more about the field I want to get into, so thats just an extra thing added to this already giant heap of other things I need to do. So Time management is crucial.
but I could time manage all I want, and be as organized as I possibly can, but that would never fix the ADHD issue I have. I get distracted way too easily. The LAST thing I want to do is get prescribed some pills and become a soulless zombie. I am heavily against the pharmaceutical drug market, and strongly believe that they take advantage of the american people, just to make profit. So with that im left to my own devices to figure out ways to keep myself focused. I've tried to starve myself throughout the day to improve focus... and it works extremely well. But im not too sure if that is the healthiest thing in the world, so that method is stored in the back of my brain for later use.
Although I do feel like you could somehow harness the power of it.... As corny as it sounds. A big thing with ADHD people is hyper fixation. There are times where you are just OBSESSED with something that you find interesting, or have a big passion for. And that hyper fixation leads to rapid growth and learning about that particular subject, or thing. So if I could somehow find a way to divert those hyper fixations to things that involve my schooling or career would REAAAAAALLLLLY help. The only problem with that is you can only do that with things that you find interesting or fun. And to be honest, 99% of people out there dont really find Calculus or Network subnetting very interesting. So this is a puzzle that I can hopefully solve and use to my advantage. Using a flaw I have.... to MY own advantage.... weird huh. This is just how my brain works though. Im only really speaking for myself. Many ADHD people either have it worse, or better than I have it.
I just hope regardless of what happens, I still complete my goals completely, and in a timely manner.
-- Ducky