Writing this at work right now. Havent updated my journal in a long ass time. Man you should see the lunch im eating right now lol. A fucking plate of spaghetti and a monster.
I'm at my new job at Amazon right now. I normally do picking, but today im doing something called "water spider". Its pretty much where you put full totes from universal picking stations (where they dont have a conveyor belt to do it themselves) on another conveyor belt myself. I dont understand why amazon decides not to invest in their facility and update them, but yeah. I'm doing this shit rn cuz amazon some cheap ass mf's.
I got a offer at Boeing tho, so I shouldnt be complaining too much. Ngl, I kinda enjoy the job I do here at amazon. I think I wont really like the new spot at Boeing, but it does pay more, and the growth opportunities there are nuts. Amazon has no growth opportunities whatsoever, and it can get a bit repetitive and boring sometimes. Other than that, im liking my job right now. Pretty chill.
Shyanne is more than halfway through her pregnancy now... I dont know how to feel about that. It's coming way too fast. We both have good jobs now so we have a good chance of getting an apartment before she gives birth in november. We just made her registry at Target as well a couple of days ago. We have plans to move out sometime in October. I make around 2,200 a month, and she makes a tiny bit more, so I think we can pull it off.
But man like I mentioned earlier, I feel as if things are moving so fucking fast. School Is going BLAZING fast (cuz of summer quarter) and this baby is getting bigger by the second. I am starting to like the idea of raising this baby though. Even if me and shyanne break up, I feel like I would actually have fun. The idea of raising a mini me sounds hilarious and fun. But then again, i'm some dumb 20 year old with no experience on raising a child whatsoever, so who tf knows anymore.
I'm trying to go through this with a positive and ambitious attitude. Looking on the bright side of things has been a habit of mine ever since Shyanne has been pregnant, and I think its actually starting to work now. As long as I will be able to live a somewhat normal life, and be able to pursue some of my life long goals and dreams, it'll be alright with me
I'm also going into this with a "whatever happens, will happen" kinda attitude. I hope I come out of this alive though lol. The worst is yet to come.
I just clocked out so I gotta end this here. Maybe I'll add some stuff or make a new entry later tonight after work.
adios future me
Alejandro DeLeon